These are letters that I wrote to
Mike in the months following his death (06/14/10)...
9/12/10~
I was conflicted and confused. Hurt
and scared. I was talking with a friend and telling her how I was struggling
trying to understand your death.
She explained to me that she has
been led to believe that God puts us all here for a divine purpose. When that
purpose has been fulfilled, it is then that God calls us back home.
I could find some measure of
comfort in that belief, because I know God put you in my life for a reason.
I became a woman through your
gentle encouragement and guidance. You taught me I was worth something in this
world. You made me feel beautiful and confident. You taught me to respect
myself.
You helped me through the loss of
my father, when I felt so lost.
You taught me to be selfless, which
helped me when you got sick. I was consumed with you health and comfort. I was
able to return the unconditional love you poured out so selflessly on me.
My life is so much more beautiful
because it was blessed by your presence.
Through your death and the
following pain I came to Christ, I could not handle it alone. Today I was
baptized with my church by full submersion in a lake. I knew you and Daddy were
with me, I could feel you.
You both walk with me now as my
angels. Your love will always be with me. I thanked God for both of you today.
My life is better and I am a better person because of both of you.
I love you both and I miss you
terribly...
